GreenEmperor’s World

Today is June 7, 2008
I
can’t hardly think of the things that happened to me for pasts months.
kung iisispin mo….ang bilis ng panahon. Ang dami ding mga pagkakataon
na gusto kong i-salaysay yung mga saloobin ko pero hindi ko nagawa. May
mga ginawa din akong blogs na hindi ko na i-post noon….kaya ngaun ko
i-popost.

April 12, 2008
Today,
I went to Paragon Plaza as I wanted to have my OJT at Magic 89.9, but
sad to say that they are already full. Sigh, I guess Magic 89.9 isn’t
for me. 

So I
also tried to Mellow Touch(?) and Campus FM. Hope Campus FM would
consider my application. After that I went to DLSU-M to see the
participants of RTV 12 from that institution. Na miss ko sila…lalo na
sina Ms. Tina at Ms. Macy kaso busy naman….wahehehehehehe

Three
days before my birthday I am still looking for an internship site then.
Still, I managed to find one at DXZL - 558 RMN - Manila. Before
Photoshop, Photography PR or Law came to my life, Radio is there.
Growing up and freqeuntly listening to the radio, especially to then
97.1 DWLS FM Campus Radio, it was like a dream for me to be come a DJ.
But, I entered AM station, howcome? I would want to learn. Many lessons
could be thought in AM stations and I really learned a lot. From
covering a GMA beat to Marketing Skills…It really make my OJT days
special. I started on April 16 and ended on April 30. For 63 Hours. 63
Hours? Yes my friend, becuase the department deducted some hours from
our Singapore Trip, ICCS Seminar….and My Japan stint. Speaking of
Japan, here is a blog about the first day that I have met my fellow
delegates, specially my Group at the Inter-Continental Hotel Manila:

It’s
been a while since I have been into blogging. I am supposed to publish
a blog about my term as it ended at 12:00 in the midnight of May 1,
2008.

It is a bitter-sweet feeling for me. But over-all, the experience of having a roller coaster ride was worth riding for.

 May 12, 2008 (12:48 am)
May
2 – 5, 2008 was the Lasallian Press Conference. It was held at
University of Saint La Salle. This event actually came in first before
the RTV 12. Since it was planned for me to go my mother’s hometown
during the Press Conference’s period of time, I presented myself that I
will join the event, provided that I will incur the airfare.

I
have arrived last May 1, 2008. Spent some time with my cousins and off
I went to USLS for the conference. Over-all the experience was great
and I am excited to share the experience with fellow Liberal Arts
journalist. While other participants went home on the 5^th of May, I was left behind and scheduled my flight on the 9^th
instead. Why? Because the real purpose why I went to Bacolod is to
settle something with my relatives and to answer a question: “Will I
still continue my studies?” Good to say, the question was answered.

It’s
a good thing that your family is proud of what you are doing. Knowing
that I am going to be a delegate on the JENESYS programme to Japan and
will be known as a student ambassador, they have showed the support
that no one could give. One moment that really crushed my heart is when
I and my Grandmother had this conversation in Hiligaynon (I am not that
fluent, though I could understand). The conversation is really one of a
kind. It was our “real” conversation after his, my grandfather, died.

(Translated in tagalog)

 Jackner: La, ano ito?

 Lola: Baunin mo na (gave two one dollar bills)

                Jackner: Ha? Ano ka ba la? Baka wala ka na nito…

 Lola: Sus, yaan mo na. Dati Marami ako nyan, kaso nung nagkasakit ako
             pinapalitan ko na…nakakakuha lang ako sa isa nyan ng 40 pesos…sige na baunin 
            mo na yan papuntang Japan.

That
moment really broke my heart. The financial crisis really hit my family
this time. And honestly, I am having a hard time adjusting to all of
what is happening. But experiencing the simplicity of life that we have
at Bacolod, I said to myself that I could adapt to it. 

So,
here I am, in room 323 of Intercontinental Hotel Manila, doing a blog
and expressing my thoughts Experiencing being the leader of our group
is not different from being a leader in an institution. You are leading
diverse people with different thoughts and ideas.

As
far as our first day is concerned, challenges are there. As what I have
written here, there are diversity. Thank God there is no conflict.
There is democracy being promoted by the leader (hahahahaha).

Yes,
I am the leader of our group, or should I say leaders. Hahahahaha. The
Whole Japan Experience was a heck of a trip. It has been my honor to be
part of this programme and represent our country for this event.
Eventually, I became more emotional, becuase there more emotional
attachments that I have given over the days that we spent in a foreign
land, specially to my foster family. They have been my Family away from
Home. And I haven’t help myself to cry when we have to seperate.

I was amuzed when they declared us as Student Ambassadors, and upon reading the guidelines, it happens to be that it also have of Goodwill. Quite interesting huh? hahahahaha.
Upon returning in the Philippines, I have to finish some business that I have left.
First,
my OJT certificate. It was a fun to si Sir den again. It was flattering
that he acknowledge me for what I have done for myself to improve.

Second,
My enrolment. May 15th was the enrolment scheduled for 4th year
regulars, and I missed it becuase I am in a foreign land. So, I was
offcially enroled last June 2, 2008.

and Third, some presonal
issues. Im glad that some are resolved, and some are not. Some have
good endings, some have "the damage is there, but still it ended good"
and some are needed not to be tackled anymore to reduce or stop the
damage that it will make.

Well, Here I am, back in my dorm. After 2 days of cleaning my room while I am sick, it ’s fresh air again ladies and germs.

It’s funny that I could do anything that I would want to do, but the catch here: I am doing it , ALONE.

I
more time going to the malls, Having photos edited, internet, YM and
stuffs like that. I also have more time on Photography. But, again, I
am doing it all alone. I don’t know why. Maybe because I would like to
isolate myself and feel the serenity that it could bring. or maybe I am
just a jerk.

Well, I am glad that LoL is in my life right now
and the people with me who founded it. and a lot of changes is
happaning in my life right now, and it’s quite interesting to know for
myself how am I going to deal with it.

But just right now, I am
happy and contented with whats happening with me. A lot of new
opportunities, new network of friends and a whole lot more…plus this
korean girl that make me cheer everday.hahahahaha.

To give you an idea what are in-stored for me after returning to the Philippines, here are some:

- I know usually sleep 9:00 in the evening and wake up at 4:45 in thhe morning, or around that time.

-
I am planning to subsribe to TIME magazine and Digital Phtographer
Philippines since I noticed that could save a lot (Php 120 for TIME and
Php 295 for DPP) (I bought my first DPP Mag just last April and I fell
in love with that I wanted to subscribe. And TIME to balance
everything. Even though there is playboy philippines….hahaha…I’ll
go now for what I need, so bye-bye FHM)

- I now usually have 30
- 45 minutes of bathing time and 20 minutes of post bathing ceremonies
(i.e. Toothbrushing, application of deodorant, etc). Before it was 30
minutes, al-in-all

- I gain weight (125 lbs)

  - I frequently smile now

                                A FAMILY
                            STEPPING-UP,
                     to make the right                                                       CHOICE
                                                                                                - PRO LA SALLE PARTICIPANTS 2007

The
Student Development and Activities Office of De La Salle University -
Dasmariñas is conducting a yearly leadership training seminar for
incoming student leaders of the university.

And I am previliged to be a part of that yearly activity.

This year’s destination: DLSU-D and Caliraya Re-creation Center in Luwan, Laguna.

Our first two days are spent in our university, Listening to talks that discussing the nitty-gritty of organizing an activity, starting a student’s cooperative and some other talks that discusses the management thing pertaining to "time" and "one self".

But then, there is this one talk, that "captivate" my
attention. The Alay sa Bayan movement or ALAB for short is a
Non-Government Organization that helps youth to find their heroes and
then eventually inspiring them to do good in their daily lives. That
day, ALAB was leaded by Kuya Emmanuel Nazareno.

                                                                      "Heroes has their own story to share…"
                                                                                                                                                                        -Gabe Mercado

The
talk is supposedly to started by Fr. Caluag. But he will be coming from
antipolo on that day, so the second speaker will be the first to giving
a talk about Ms. June Keithly. It was Gabe Mercado. As he arrives at
the place, I was standing infront of the window and starting to think
about what kind of talk he will be sharing.

As the talk started,
I was starting to be amused on how he expresses himself infront of us.
Yes, he is a TV personality, but by that time he is not. He is someone,
that has something to share that will be leaving an impact on our lives.

And
the end, he said that he is quite dissapointed on himself because he
cannot do anything to live what the essence of 1986 is all about.

By
that time, he is twelve years of age. Young, Idelistic and full of
energy. He has nothing to lose. But now, he has a son to think. He is
afraid that his son will lose a father is he will try to do something
in order to live that spirit.

He said, that if he died on
that year fighting on what he believes, he had probably a bridge or a
street named after him. But I must say, that you don’t have to die to
be a hero. If your concept of being a hero is all about doing something
Good and Die, well, Shame on you. you will die as an idol, but not as
an Icon. For as idol fades away, but Icons remains.

And as the talk ended,we are convinced that Gabe Mercado is a Hero. A Hero that have a story to share.

As
the session goes, Father Caluag said that the efforts of the people way
back on 1986 in not wasted, though the people itself is wasting the
essence of what they did.

Kuya Emmanuel initiated a workshop for us to identify our own heroes.

And the end of the whole session, it’s like an Ateneo-La Salle interaction and forum.

The Following day we are headed to Caliraya Re-creation Center for the second half of our activity.

Dean Ann Margaret Martin of Office of Student Services discussed all about accountability.
And the issue of venues arises.

                            "We must maximize all of our resources…"
                                                                                                                                             -Dean Ann Margaret Martin

And
as the talk ended we made our covenant for the coming academic year.
And we are tasked by Sir Richie to give meaning to the letters F,S,C in
order to make our covenant. And we are able to come up with the words
FAMILY, STEPPING-UP, CHOICE.

We are expected to live the words that we have thought in order to give a quality service for our fellow lasallians.

As
the last day arrived, we maximize our time to enjoy the place. Some of
our co-student leaders tried the mud slide. But the most refreshing
activity that we have done is the tour within the place. We have gone
through the lake by a boat.

And as the tour goes, I have proven to my self "na napaka sarap talagang mabuhay".

And
as we go home, I am very thankful that I am a part of this year’s Pro
La Salle. I have made new friends. Exchanges idea with other student
leaders of our university. Learned something from Jaime and that’s how
to play the gandula. Also, the show that we have in our bus. The corny jokes of mine, Don’s and Reggie’s. And also the Logic moment of Don.

Let us Live what we have learned..

ANIMO!

Recalling…

I remember, I’ve said in one of our campaign during the student’s elections that…

"Commitment seperates DOERS from DREAMERS".

And as I recall these words, I often think about myself. Contemplating, assessing what is my capacity as a student leader.

But, as the Academic Year ends…

I’ve embraced a new life.

A new responsibilty that will be entering my life soon.

And as I imagine myself to be there, I just take a deep breath and say…

"Whew! I am the youngest among the past, they will be understamating me…"

But mentor and friends will tell me…

"Prove them wrong!".

And I replied…

"I did’nt ran just to prove them wrong, I ran for student service. If I prove them wrong, well that’s a bonus…"

So what’s the connection on the title?

Nothing.

Imagine was the title of the concert of DLSU-M’s POPS ORCHESTRA.

We watched their gala show…

and it was great!

Noong February 28, ay ang huli naming pagkakataon para mangampanya…
at patunayan ang sarili namin sa maga bontante…

Ang haba ng parada…
wow!
Nakabilad kami sa initan!

At ako ang may hawak ng mega phone…
ang mga sub ko ay sina JC at Arvin…

konti man kami…
napadama namin ang aming presensya sa mga Lasalyano…

Akala namin ay sa Museum Complex ang Meeting de Avance…
yun pala ay sa Lake park na naman…

Nakakalungkot…
kasi…
konti lang na magaaral ang nandun….
tsk3…

Grabe ang init…
pero ininda na lang namin…
at nagsalita kami sa taas ng entablado…

Ang pakiramdam ay mas masarap kaysa sa nung ako ay nasa HS nung nag Meeting de Avance kami…

Nailabas ko ang mga saloobin ko…
ang mga gusto kong iparating…

Todo bonding kami ng mga ka - slate ko at ng slate namin sa USC….
tawanan at kulitan…
kasama na din ang pakikinig at pagsuporta sa mga seryosong pananalita ng aming mga kapartido…

At natapos ang araw ng pagaalis ng mga kagamitan sa pangangampanya.

GreenEmperor15@yahoo.com 
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Wah!
11:30am na ako na gising ngayong araw na ito!
Grabe ang pagod!

Pumunta kami kasi kagabi sa debut ng kapatid ni kuya clemen, at todo road trip!
wahehehehehe.

Ako, si Arvin, Nikki, ate JM, Donya Lednl at Kuya Paolo sa Driver’s Seat.
Ang saya!

Kulitan sa koste…
nung una si lendl nagpapakapanis ng laway…
wahehehehe…

At TRAPIK sa SLEX!
kasi may ginagawa dun sa may San Pedro.
Kaya nagpagas muna kami sa Petron at napagkatuwaang dumaan sa Starbucks.

At…
Walang hiyang Venti na yan!
Hindi ako makahinga ng maayos!
Dapat Grande lang ang binili ko…

Nung pumasok kami sa Southwoods exit….
umikot kami para makadaan sa Calamba exit….
nang sa gayon ay maka daan sa San Pedro Exit…

Kaso…

Naaliw si arvin sa pagkukuwento….
At lumbas kami sa SLEX…pa north - bound!
wahehehehehe…
lahat nagsigawan sa kotse…

at dahil sa pagkakamaling ito…
dumaan kami sa "pinaka malapit" na exit…
ang Filinvest Exit…
wahehehehehe….

Nung makadating kami sa paroroonan…
kumain kami….
nag - host si arvin…
at natulog kami ni kuya paolo sa kotse….
wahehehehehe…
Pagod kasi kami…

—————————————————————————————————

Wala kaming tulog….
pano ba naman kasi….
tinapos ko yung HTML project namin….
at para kaming mga bandido sa dorm ni Lendl….
kasi minomonitor namin ang bilangan sa eleksyon…

Every 2 hours sila tumatawag….
at ako pa ang taga sagot ng tawag…
kaya talagang wala akong matinong tulog….
wahehehehehe….

Nung dumating na yung resulta…
mixed emotions ang lahat….

At nakikiramdam ako sa paligid….

Nakakalungkot nga lang….
kasi may mga naririnig ako….
na medyo hindi talaga maganda sa pandinig….

Parang di nila pinahalagahan ang pangako na binitawan nila sa isang tao…
hay….
pulitika nga naman….

Pero…

Simula pa lang na lahat….
may mga maririnig pa ako na negatibo panigurado sa mga susunod na araw….
at hinahanda ko na ang sarili ko…

GreenEmperor15@yahoo.com
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Another chapter will end…

Another event will  be written in the history of our University…

And, I’m very, very damn PROUD that I will part of that history!

The Campaign Period will soon end, and the elections will take place.

Maybe we are in DIFFERENT PARTY. But the MEAN is the same.

TO SERVE OUR FELLOW STUDENTS.

Nervous?

I don’t know.

Honestly, I am feeling jitters of excitement inside my body…

Towards the day that I am waiting for…

No, not the elections…

Well, It could be one…

But, I am waiting for the day of Meeting De Avance.

I still remember when I was in my 4th yr in HS.

Running for the SC’s President…

The adrenaline of standing in front of many people…

The excitement that event brought to me…

The pump of my heart, that almost made my chest explode.

This time around, it will be different…

Different setting…
Different scenario…
Different feeling…

The only way I could describe it…

Is to wait, until that day COME.

February 28, 2007
DLSU - Dasmariñas
Meeting De Avance
Museum Complex

GreenEmperor15@yahoo.com 
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Wahehehehe!

Tao na ako!

Nakapag pa-Hot Oil ako last sunday.

Ang sarap pala. Nakakarelax. Nakaka - alis ng pagod.

Pero, hindi talaga yan ang topic ng blog na ito. Siguro pahapyaw lang yung Hot Oil para ‘di obvious. Wahehehehe.

Medyo late na ang topic na ito, kasi naman, masyadong busy. Kaya every weekends lang nakakapag - post.

Nung linggo ng umaga…may nagtxt sa akin, at ito ang kinalabasan ng aming pag - uusap:

Apolinaris: Hey! Just read your blog about **t*. And I’ve noticed something

Juan: Ano?! Grammar na naman?!

Apolinaris: No! Ano ka ba? You think that I that am rude?!? Hehehehehe, cuz naman! Anyway, may mga thoughts  ka kasi dun na masyadong pessimistic.

Juan: Ganun? Siguro if you are in my shoes, you will feel what I am suffering right now. Aside from my "chest problem", I want to fight the feeling na lang. Ikaw ba, naranasan nang binabalewala ng babae? Ako, madalas. Naranasan mo na bang mabigo ng dahil sa Love? Ako, lagi. Ang sarap ng feeling mainlove. Kaso nakakasawa na din yung mga pinagdadaanan ko. I know that love is patience. But what can I see now, prevention is better that cure.

Apolinaris: Ok, sayo na nanggaling na palagi kang bigo at palagi kang nasasaktan dahil sa babae at sa "love" itself. Sa tingin mo, bakit? Kung susuriin mo, may common denominator ba yung mga past experiences mo?

Juan: Sa totoo lang, hindi ko alam. Hindi ko alam. I don’t want to analyze my painful "love affairs". And besides, love is my weakness.

Apolinaris: If you will not analyze, you’ll never lean the core of the scenario. In turn, you’ll never solve your dilemma. And I don’t want you to be a nightcrawler for the rest of your life! Cuz, nobody wants to be lonely. I’m sure your with the world. You see, you have to face the problem. I care for you that’s why I’m doing this. Your afraid  to get hurt> So what will you do? Envelope yourself in a blanket of "priorities" and "justifications"?! Dude, c’mon!

Juan: Ok na din siguro ako sa ganito. At least everyday, nakikita ko yung babae ng mga pangarap ko. Kontento na ako dun. Hehehehehehe.

Apolinaris: Nasasabi mo lang yan kasi youre still at your youthful stage. Pano pag nasa point ka na ng settling for stability? Could you still utter that "college excuses?", I guess not. Are you sure na ganyang konsepto ang gusto mong kalakihan ’till you you reached adulthood? Matalino ka, alam kong naiintindihan mo ako. I’m sure gusto mong sumaya. Not unless with whole honestly and with a whole heart mong masasabi sa akin na mas matimbang sayo ang "student service" at "politics" over lovelife. Or should I say yun ang gusto mong paniwalaan para makaexcuse ka para huwag ng harapin ang problema mo?

Juan: Masaya naman ako sa student service. It kills my boredom, loneliness and it can enhance my skills. Though nakakapagod siya, but then I realize that I can find happiness and satisfaction on what I am doing.

Apolinaris: Whole heartedly?

Juan: As of now, maybe yes.

February 14th…

A special day for those have their own "hubbies".

A day that Valentine riegn.

A day which cupids are flying around in the polluted city.

 For me, being a single guy, this is a normal day.

Waking up early in the morning.

Going to school to study.

No scheduled date.

But, this may not restrict me of showing love to SOMEONE.

February 13th…

As I arrived "home", I immediately get my pen and a UNICEF card to right a letter, an expression of what I do I feel about her.

Just being myself, I glide my pen to write something that I haven’t told her before, though showed constantly, but not bluntly.
…

As the day of the "hearts" arrived, I first attented my first two classes. Then off I went to the place where I made my reservation for a beautifully arranged flora.

As I inttetionally entering the class late, I interrupted the class to show a "demo" of how giving flowers to a girl. And off I went, nervous, I slowly approached her, give the flowers, and no words come out of our mouths. They told me to have my "speech", but I told them that the letter will speak for itself.

After that "phenomena", I can say that I am one of the happiest on the face of the planet. Finally, I’ve express to her what do I feel for her.

Though, that happiness will last only for that day. Or should I say that very moment.

Realization Number One: I only gave her flowers. Nothing more, nothing less.

Realization Number Two: She is too hard to court. And If I will, as if I am commiting a "friendship suicide".

Realization Number Three: She is not mine She will not be mine. And She cannot be mine.

Realization Number Four: Im too moron to live in a "fantasay world" of human beings with incredible confidence.

Realization Number Five: I am one of the species who are categorized as "TORPE".

Realization Number Six: Im too stupid when it comes to Love, contrary the fact that I can give advise to those who have "love problem". Ergo, Im very, very stupid when it comes to my own "love life".

Strong people becomes weak. Intelligent people becomes stupid. That’s what Love can do…

GreenEmperor15@yahoo.com

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[feel free to comment]

Think.

Is it hard to fight your fate using your will?

Or perhaps try to endure that it may bring beacuase something good is waiting at the end of the rainbow?

Last Thursday(Feb. 8), was the start of the campaign period set up by the USCE for the forth coming University Wide Student’s Election, and damn! It really making me thin.

Fact number one: consider the the 3G’s: The Guns, The Goons and the Gold.
    Im not saying that we should have this things, but my point is that RESOURCES is the key of winning in a certain election. If you will run for a certain position, even if it is on the collegiate level, you will spend money baby!
    I remember spending almost 500 pesos for the campaign when I ran for Presidency for our student council way back on my 4th yr HS days. And I spent almost 5,000 pesos for the victory party.

Fact number two: You are now a public figure: Every move of yours is being tagged!
    Yes it is!A single reaction about a certain thing or even a single joke will mean something for other people. Well, that’s life in a public eye’s way. It’s hard. I mean, I don’t know where will I place myself. Some people saying that I am "mayabang" and stuffs like that. Well, I do admit that sometimes I feel that I am boastful, but not arrogant, I guess. Just like our professor in Advertising Priciples said to me: "there is a thin line between confidence and arrogance". And I do know how to read the line, but not the thiness of it.

Fact number 3: Commitment is the key for a strong fight, but don’t let it eat you as a whole.
    Self Management is the word my fellow friends. It will not be essential that you are forgetting the main reason why are you running, because you want to serve your fellow students, and at the same time doing your responsiblities as a student as well. Student came first before leader in the word "Student - Leader". Remember: don’t let the system eat you, you will dictate the phase of the system.

And

Fact number 4: The only thing that seperates you with your oponent in a certain election is the party, nothing more, nothing less.
    If you started as a friend, well promote a friendly competition. You have the same reason with yor oponent why both of you are running, it is becaus you want to serve your fellow students. The only thing is that, you have a different party that have different styles of serving to the students and different ideology. And that’s make a variation.

GreenEmperor15@yahoo.com
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Tama!

Weekend na naman para sa iba, pero para sa akin…hindi pa.

February 2 ngayon, normal na araw marahil para sa iba, pero ito ang anniversary ng mga magulang ko nung kinasal sila sa huwes noon. 18 yrs na sila, kasabay ng edad ko ngayong taon.
May simpleng handaan sa bahay, nagsimba ang mga magulang ko at konteng kuwentuhan.

Bago ako makauwi sa amin, medyo nabigla ako nung nawawala ang terminal ng van na pinagsasakyan ko. Oo, nawawala yung terminal, kasi lumipat na sila. Kaya wala akong ibang magagawa kung hindi sumakay ng biyaheng pa - calamba at sumakay pa ng dalawan jeep para makasakay ng tricycle papuntang sa amin.

Bukas,kailangan kong pumunta ng aming eskwelahan sapagkat merong seminar akong kailangang puntahan.

[sana hindi ako bumasak sa logic at stat...huhuhu...pray with me!]

GreenEmperor15@yahoo.com
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